The Love That Should Never Have Been: Pt 6 Save Me From Myself.

I literally need to be saved from my self. 

From my own weakness, my own carnal desires. 

I so wish to be strong, to be the one who can resist the temptation, who can resist the urge to tempt you when I see the longing in your body, the one who doesn’t concede to the gentle stroke of your hand over my body while you breathe into my ear. 

But how can I? 

As powerful as I am how can I withstand you?

My body screams to be caressed, embraced, taken. It literally longs for the physical connection. And it’s attuned to you, it knows your smell, your touch, your skin. So when your eyes play, when you hint at the possibility, while my mind knows better, my being instantly responds. 

Even King David, the man after god’s own heart, couldn’t withstand the desires of his physical being. 

I know one day we will have to put an end to this delightful play we have come so accustomed to, but bubs, I am expressing now that I do not have the willpower to do this on my own. I am not resilient enough to be able to win this battle of temptation alone. 

I am unable to refrain from kissing you if you lean in, from caressing your beautiful chest when I lay beside you. If presented with the opportunity I can not stop myself from wrapping my lips around you and sucking the glorious juices you’ve created within your being. I am incapable of withholding myself from surrendering to your strength when you pin me down and allowing you to do with me as you will. In that very moment, there is nothing I desire more than to be taken by you. So how can I put end to it alone?

My own flesh betrays me.

I am dire need of being saved from myself.